Older and wider...the body issue

Being a RSG, of course I have my fair share of body issues (I can almost hear the men groan!).  Funnily enough when I was younger I never had them.  Now I am older and wider (there are many reasons for this but that's another story!), I have a HUGE issue with my 'curves', no let's put it right out there - love my curves, hate my tummy, massive boobs and oversized muffins!!!


Now, you are probably wondering why you need to know all of this! Well, it comes down to how a RSG actually feels and the actual response she gets to her body - confidence or no confidence,


Once again this RSG is about to compare her two known countries, so brace yourself...


On a trip home to NZ just this week, apart from the reason I was there for, I had a blast!!! Fun times with the family and as fate would have it fun times with the boys! From here on out this blog could go in a few directions so bear with me to see how it pans out.


While at home, in the short space of 4 days, I managed to have 3 hmmmm...what would you call them...dalliances...with young men.  All very different in age, looks, personality and definitely not from the same worlds!


Picture this......Saturday night, drive around to a friends house to catch up, after an hour or so of wine, bourbon and a little Thai food, things were getting fun.  He was getting closer on the couch, hilarious stories were being swapped and my mind started entertaining the idea that yeah...I could do this...love him to pieces...but we are really good friends, have been for years, will this change things, back and forward etc and etc.....but he is cute and yum..... next thing you know my brother rings...ops...am long overdue to be at his house. Saved by the bell!!!  No problem, off we go around the road to my brothers house where him and a few friends are having a few quiet drinks.


Next thing you know we are heading into town, at 1am, to meet up with our sister and her fling of the night. After dancing the hour away on a window seat and downing a few 'Quick F*#ks' (Excuse my French), I had decided it was a good idea to text the guy that had shown me his 'diddle' on Skype a while back and let him know I was here.  I was drunk...I could do anything!  Obviously so was he and as we kept missing each other and a few bars later it was time to hit KFC (not a good idea the next day!), and head back to watch the rugby!  The next morning and right up until I left I was receiving texts to come and pick me up, to 'hang out' and to hmmmmmmmm'.


Anyway....after saying goodnight to my friend - apparently I had decided that it was NOT a good idea - I will cut a long story short, I had a wee kissing incident with a boy which I have to admit was really nice and luckily I had the good sense(somehow) not to go further with it.  During this wee dalliance some comment was said to which he replied 
'I hate it when girls like you say stuff like that!"
Me: (in my drunken stupor, couldn't even remember what I had just said! Ops) 'What do you mean'
HIm: 'What you just said, it's stupid'
Me: 'Huh' (He repeats what I said)
Me: 'Well, I'm not wanting you to be nice, I'm just stating a fact'
Him: 'Well it's bullshit, I hate it when attractive girls like you say stuff like that'
Me: 'I'm ok, not attractive'
Him: 'Whatever, you so know you are!'


Seriously...no, no I don't, just ask anyone in Asia, no correct that...any male is Asia!  This leads me into my other experience - Hong Kong.


I don't think that t even need to go into that fateful date again, refer to the blog, a guy that I meet out on the town proceeded to not believe me that I was a Kiwi girl and then told me that in a recent study, NZ women were amongst the ugliest in the world, but oh no, he wouldn't have told me if he thought I wasn't stunning! What a load of CRAP!  In the morning of an already stated one night fling, the guy decided to comment on my body 'Oh, wow, you are really....curvy....aren't you! I mean come on!!! Is that a confidence boost or what!  There is also the obvious that living here, men have their pick of extremely skinny and fit Asian women and I have been called 'fat' by many people even by the kids at school!


So shoot me and any other RSG if we have a body issue!  Even if we do feel confident and love our bodies, these mixed reactions are whats ultimately packing the punch and serving us up a cold hard plate of reality.


My question is:


Is it the countries view or experience with women that sets their standards or views on what is an acceptable body type for a 'mate' or is it really just luck of the draw?


Because from where I am standing it's:
NZ - 1
HK - 0


I feel a move coming on and along with it a return of confidence! Anyone want to join me?


Love RSG! xo