Return of the RSG

New Years Eve, with the people I love most, home in NZ, not knowing what was in store for 2011....a very happy RSG!

In my 5 month hiatus I have obviously been through a New Years.  Not one for real resolutions, I usually disregard this tradition, however this year I only really wanted one thing....to have a happy year.  It may seem simple, or strange, or down right ridiculous but after 2010 and a lot of time in the unknown and figuring out some things, I really just wanted to be happy...to have a great year.

One things for sure...and I know this is going to sound absolutely CRAZY to anyone who knows me and what has been happening, not only in my life, but in my family and friends life....but I really am (so far anyway), having the most fantastic year.

Yes, I am still in HUGE debt, my family and friends have suffered through not only 1 but 2 HUGE earthquakes compete with physical and especially ongoing emotional damage, I had to turn down an amazing job opportunity in Germany due to financial reasons, a torn tendon and Abductor Magnus muscle, ongoing physio (also draining on my funds), and this year started with my body still fighting me and not giving me a body free of a potentially cancer causing virus (seriously not a big deal, sounds worse than it is).

However, I am still so happy.

Is my job amazing...no.  Am I challenged...no.  Am I in love...no.  Have I figured out what I want to do living wise...no.  Career wise...no.  Have I conquered myself emotionally...no.  So really, I have no idea what is really causing any of this happiness.  

Well, I can try to analyse:

- I have moved house to a place that is big, new and has the most amazing view.  I absolutely love coming home and for the first time, feel like it is completely mine.  I have decorated it (more debt...but WHO CARES?!)  And am eagerly awaiting the final custom made pieces.  Did I ever think this would impact how a RSG feels...no..but apparently it does.

- I have really worked hard to identify real, true friends, who do not judge, who support me, who let me support them and we can disagree majorly but it never affects how we look at each other and can accept each other for who we are.  Now, this may sound absolutely girly and touchy feely but being a girl who has always struggled with having girlfriends, this is a major feat for me.  I count myself so lucky that at 27, I still have some true friends from my past, some friends that can drop in on their way to Europe (good friends or not), friends who I can really be in the moment with and friends who I can chat with about anything and not have to worry about constant judgement or having to watch what I say.  Happy...HELL yes!

- I am still able to travel near and far more than a few times a year.  Self-explanatory really.  I love being able to go on holidays, explore new places and visit the old or just go home.  I miss home.  Could I go back...hmmm....now that's another story.  Definitely happy with the travel.

- Happy to be close to my family and so glad about how well they are all doing in a ridiculously difficult situation.  Absolutely love them and they mean the world to me.

- My social life has been phenomenal this year.  Not even in a party, party kind of way...does this mean I am getting old?...but I have been doing and seeing the most amazing things...concerts galore including ticking a number of things off my 'Bucket List' - Bob Dylan, The Eagles, Janet Jackson and throwing in a few others for fun..seeing my first (and maybe last) ballet, concerts and dance events.  Throw into the mix ridulous launch parties, fantastically stupid spas on the top floor of trendy hotels and secluded beaches.  Hong Kong, I have to admit, once you get used to you, you seriously aren't too bad.

Now, this entry is not all about my life being 'peachy keen, jellybean', because there is NO WAY IN HELL that that is the case.  It is far from perfect and definitely far from being plain sailing this year.  Believe me, I am sure you will see some of the not so hot points this year sometime.  However, I am planning on sticking to my News Years Resolution and making this year a good one.  Even if it means taking it week by week or even day by day.

Isn't that how a RSG actually does it?

Much love, especially to home,

Arohanui,

Love RSG xoxo